PLEASE SKIP OVER THIS POST IT IS MY JOURNAL TIME SO I CAN LOOK BACK ON AND SAY WE MADE IT!
The Saturday before valentines day Matt and I were working at the Temple something we have grown to love to do together! About an hour into the shift I randomly was in a lot of pain near my right ovary. I tried to brush it off like no big deal, but the pain kept getting worse and I could not even sit up. My mind was racing and I said a prayer. I kept thinking that the last time I was in this much pain was when my left ovary died two years ago. The pain continued to get worse and I went and found Matt and told him I needed to go to the Dr. as soon as possible. We quickly went home, changed and went to the ER. I spent the rest of Saturday in the ER they said that I had a cyst that I should rest and it should go away.
Matt and I were in communications with our parents and booked tickets home to see the Drs who performed my surgery and removed my left ovary three weeks before our wedding.
I layer in bed for a week Going crazy. The pain did not get better and I could not work which drove me nuts. The day after valentines day Matt and I flew to California to go to lots of Drs visits and have even more tests run on me. By the end of the trip the pain got a little better and we thought everything was ok.
That next Wednesday I went to work. I was so happy to be back. I tried to not stand or sit too much but I ended up being in so much pain I ended up going home at the end of the day in tears. The next week or so I tried to do what I could but was un able to get out of bed.
The Monday before my birthday I was in so much pain that we went back to the hospital where they ran more tests to see what was causing such severe pain in my lower abdomen. They could not find anything wrong but said if it continues that I should contact my Dr.
Once again Matt and I were communicating with our parents and we booked a flight to California this time the day after my 24th birthday. We had Drs appointments and a pre op appointment scheduled to see what was causing the pain.
My head was going crazy I had been flat on my back for a month which was driving me crazy and I didn't know what was wrong with me. I kept thinking what if my ovary died I will not be able to have children. All of my fears were not helped by having the Dr explain to me that if they remove my ovary I will go into menopause at 24 years old.
Matt was amazing throughout the whole thing, he was calm, patient, and took care of everything.
On Wednesday I went into surgery, the second one in less than two years. This surgery was a lot smoother than the last. They found that I have endometriosis and removed the scar tissue. I was so relieved. I spent the next week and a half in California recovering.
On Monday Matt headed back up to BYU for a conference. We were excited that I was getting back to normal and that our life could calm down a little. A little over a week after my surgery I had my post op appointment and my Dr. said that everything looked great. The next day I flew back to Utah to see my adorable husband and start working again.
On the way to come get me Matt got into a car accident injury his neck and our car. Now it is my turn to take care of my adorable husband.
I know this is long and may seem like I am being negative but I am grateful. I am grateful to be married to someone who makes me laugh even when I am upset with my situation. I am grateful that I can go back to work. I am grateful that I am healthy enough to take care of my husband. I am grateful I married someone who is hard working. I love that this has made us grow closer.
I just can't help but look back and say we are lucky. I am lucky that I still have 1 ovary. We are lucky that Matt was not hurt more. We are lucky that I still have my job. We are lucky to have great friends and family. We are lucky that we have a roof over our head! We are lucky that we have food. We are lucky that we can get out of bed. We are lucky that we have each other. Most importantly we are lucky to have a Heavenly Father who loves us and listens to our prayers!
